This was the first time as a young adult that I had to really be on my own. No family, no friends, just me. Yes I have my phone, computer, iPad and all the other great stuff to keep my to connected to everyone back home. But I had no one here with my in the flesh.
I will admit when I first got to the hotel I cried like a baby. Saying that I wanted to go home. I am the type of person who holds in all their emotions until I am alone and then let it all out. I never want anyone to see me in my vulnerable state of mind(I know you're thinking "You are being vulnerable now"...but I have been working on this for a while and I am getting better). So after about 20 minutes of having pity on myself and crying like I had just lost everything in my life. I sat up and said to myself "You can either sit here and be sad for the next 2 weeks or you can get up unpack and make yourself comfortable and make the best out of the next 2 weeks" So I got up and said a prayer to God and asked for strength, unpacked, took a shower, and relaxed!
I thought I was alone for a moment. Until I said that quick prayer. At times in our lives we think and we may be all alone but in reality God is with us the whole time. Just talk to him and let him know why you feel alone. He will comfort you. That is what he did for me. I was missing everyone back home as soon as I walked in the hotel. I forgot to mention that before I had this big break down in the hotel I went to dinner alone; which I had never done before. I went to this little diner across the street from hotel and as I was sitting there I was thinking "Dinner alone every night" and that is when it really started to hit me. I dropped a tear and asked for my check. Then as soon I walked in the hotel room I broke down.
The enemy wanted me to think I had no one that I was all alone with his evil thoughts. But I had a plan for him...God has me every step of the way! So I decided to make the best out it! When I got off of work today I went for a walk downtown (where my hotel is) and grabbed some food. Even chatted with my mom for most of my walk. It was so relaxing. I refuse to let the enemy think that he has the best of me. Not only that I am going to take advantage to learn all that I can for work. God provided me this opportunity and I will not let it slip out of my hands.
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you note forsake you"
-- Deuteronomy 31:6
Until Next Time
---Kinna
